MY DECISION.

07 April 2009 @ 09:47 pm

Over the course of campaigning for council, I realized that the council path is not one that I really want to take, and so…I thought about a lot of things! And finally I decided on Saturday that I didn’t want to continue campaigning, and I pulled out of it officially on Monday. Let me explain to everyone who reads this why exactly I pulled out of council! For the sake of everyone who asked me over these past few days.

Well, I have had friends who were in council, and I remember them being so busy with council stuff they rarely were able to go out with friends. It’s really hard to find a day where a group of people can actually make it for an outing, and then when you ask these council friends, they say OHNO they have council things to attend to. Sometimes it does get quite frustrating, even though we all know that it’s not their fault. It’s just that… because of council, we rarely get a chance to go out together and now we can’t even go out at all. I don’t think it’s what I want. Sure, it is the most awesome feeling to know that you’re making a difference in the school life of so many people, but sometimes, I just want to be a little selfish, you know? I want to be able to spend time with my friends, because I don’t want to miss hanging out with a wonderful group of people called 09S66. And there are other people I want to spend time with too…

I also have other commitments like schoolwork! For the first time in a long, long, long, long while… I’m failing my tests. I think this is the same for a lot of people too, but this is starting to worry me because I have really been slacking off. I used to be really hardworking in school (those who know me will definitely testify for me) but now I’m totally getting distracted by so many other things! I need to put in more effort in my work! Because no matter what, studies still come first, at least for me. And I do have high expectations of myself. I know that I can do it, so I should try my best! And I still need time to settle down in school and adapt to the new system. If I take on so many things at once, I’m afraid I’ll be even more of a letdown to everyone around me.

Floorball is another thing that I want to go for. I’ve wanted to join floorball ever since the sport was introduced as a PE module last year at Nanyang! It’s one of the coolest sports that I have ever played and I want to be able to enjoy this newly set-up CCA to the MAXIMUM! Of course, it’s not highly professional yet because we all are newbies at this sport, but we’ll work at it! And next year when we all go out for competitions, we hope to be able to achieve something! I don’t have to be in council to contribute to the school; we can always win something for the school! For HWA CHONG’s honour and glory!

And there’s one last major reason why I decided not to continue campaigning – during the whole campaign period, I felt quite stressed out by a lot of things. Like how people would perceive me, whether people would vote for me, what we should do for gimmicks the next day, what should I do about my math tutorial and ILP and PI… And sometimes, I’d just feel depressed because I felt like there were so many things going on and it was totally overwhelming me. There were quite a few times when some caring friends had to ask me if I was all right because I looked quite pale. It was hard to feel happy the way I usually am (maybe it was PMS O_o I’m not sure) but something definitely didn’t feel right. And to think that this isn’t even real council work yet!

Because I already am not all that enthusiastic about council, I feel guilty that I am still running for it. There are so many other people who want the post more than I do, and who are a lot more sincere and energetic compared to me. If I should get in, I wouldn’t feel happy knowing this. Hence my decision to pull out. It is better that I pull out now, even though it is a little last-minute. But I won’t ever regret running for council!

Together with my campaign group (Ashleen, Harrison and Huiying <3), putting in effort and taking the time to plan and do stuff for council… it was all worth it! Because I’ve had new experiences that nothing can ever replace! And that’s more than enough for me. I want to apologize to the councilors for causing so much inconvenience. I also want to thank everyone who has given me support, and my council groupmates for being so understanding about it!

THANK YOU, EVERYONE! :D


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