20 August 2008 @ 06:46 pm

I don’t know what I’m really feeling these days. It’s kind of mixed now.

Should I try for the Humanities Programme? Even if I’m not really keen into going completely into arts?

ARGH I don’t know. I don’t mind going into arts. But I like chemistry too… I really don’t have to go into the Humanities Programme. I mean, after all, it’s only churned out half of the President Scholars from HCI. It’s not like I can’t get any scholarships if I’m a normal student there. But… the opportunity has presented itself. Why let it go to waste? But do I really want this? It’s not just for the prestige that I’m taking this, right?

And should I take Japanese? It is a pity giving it up after 4 hard years of study. And I do like it. But my grades just suck. (Okay, not as bad as my lit, but bad nonetheless) If I do, should I take a H1? Or a H2? I think I’m not good enough for H2.

ARGH my subject combination is so screwed. I think I’m really going to leave it to the last minute before I decide. I need to hear the details about the subjects from the teachers so that I am able to make informed choices. No point tearing hair out over it now, is there?

Why am I thinking so hard about this? It’s not like what I take now will affect my career choices next time, right? And why am I putting so much emphasis on the grades? If I really like a subject, it really shouldn’t matter, right? Oh my goodness.

The other day, my mum asked me if I liked my school. Well, let’s just say she suspected that I hated it because I complained about it. Maybe I’m just entering the “rebellious” stage of my life. I SHALL EAT IN CLASS ON THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. SCREW THE COUNCILLORS AND TEACHERS! RARGH!

Okay, I realize that this is a totally random post, so I shall write random stuff here.

1. FLOORBALL ROCKS! I wonder if there is a floor-ball CCA at HCI.
2. Snake is so awesome! I wanna watch MGS3 all over again! Oh. I haven’t even finished watching MGS4. But that will have to wait till after the exams, I guess… T.T
3. Oh. I haven’t even finished watching Fushigi Yuugi. Sorry, Gail! I shall return it to you soon! Soon…
4. Oh my goodness. What the hell? I should be getting back to my work.

私は、一生懸命頑張ろうと思う！将来のために、絶対にあきらめない！

Easier said than done.


Current Location: At home
Current Mood: Blah
Current Music: "Baby Low-Tension" by Meg Rock